movement, movement

Posted in quotes by amoslanka on August 12, 2010

The unspoken word is capital. We can invest it or we can squander it.
– Mark Twain’s Notebook

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The Death of Isaac Babel

Posted in books, life by amoslanka on August 4, 2009

I’ve just finished reading one of the most beautiful books I’ve ever read, The History of Love by Nicole Krauss. The book was not a life-saver but definitely a peace-giver. What else does one need in concerned times but to read about an old man, a great unrecognized author, who lost his only love as a young man and now performs silly acts of disruption just so people will notice him as he expects to die at any time, and a young detective of a girl named Alma after every girl in a rare book her father gave her mother when they first met?

The novel, in certain respects, is a story woven around a novel of the same name, written by a boy who’d loved a girl since age 10, only to lose her when she left Poland for the United States during World War 2.The novel contains snippets from the “internal” novel as well as other writings by the same fictitious author. The only writings more breathtaking than Krauss’s words in The History of Love are the writings by her fictitious authors within that novel, which of course, are also written by Krauss.

One particular string of articles included were a set of obituaries, written by a young character about the time he himself was also attempting to flea Poland. A few particularly stood out to me, and I’ll include one here, entitled The Death of Isaac Babel. (read about the real Isaac Babel here.)

Only after they charged him with the crime of silence did [Issac] Babel discover how many kinds of silences existed. When he heard music he no longer listened to the notes, but the silences in between. When he read a book he gave himself over entirely to commas and semicolons, to the space after the period and before the capital letter of the next sentence. He discovered the places in a room where silence gathered; the folds of curtain drapes, the deep bowls of the family silver. When people spoke to him, he heard less and less of what they were not. He learned to decipher the meaning of certain silences, which is like solving a tough case without any clues, not only intuition. And no one could accuse him of not being prolific in his chosen métier. Daily, he turned out whole epics of silence. In the beginning it had been difficult. Imagine the burden of keeping silent when your child asks you whether God exists, or the woman you love asks if you love her back. At first Babel longed for the use of just two words: Yes and No. But he knew that just to utter a single word would be to destroy the delicate fluency of silence.

Even after they arrested him and burned all of his manuscripts, which were all blank pages, he refused to speak. Not even a groan when they gave him a blow to the head, a boot tip in the groin. Only at the last possible moment, as he faced the firing squad, did the writer Babel suddenly sense the possibility of his error. As the rifles were pointed at his chest he wondered if what he had taken for the richness of silence was really the poverty of never being heard. He had thought the possibilities of human silence were endless. But as the bullets tore from the rifles, his body was riddled with the truth. And a small part of him laughed bitterly because, anyway, how could he have forgotten what he had always known: There’s no match for the silence of God.

How does one see anything but slow motion or hear anything but distant echos after reading these two paragraphs? Such a powerful page leaves me in the same state as after I’d read for the first time, Dostoyevsky’s The Grand Inquisitor: somewhere between staring in a mirror, asking if its really myself looking back, and weeping, silently or not, internally or not.

That is where it put me. A week later I’m finally writing about it. A week later I’m finally writing the first post containing more than one paragraph that I’ve written in a month. A week later I’m celebrating life with my Portland family and sharing the light and dark of my recent weeks. Josh Ritter said that only a full house will have a chance. Only a full house can bring the exponential meaning to both the silence and the sound. Chuck Cooper says we fly high and we fall hard. I want it no other way, because I have faith in the verses we’ve sung and the chorus to come.

Silence, Love, Frederick Buechner.

Posted in books, christianity, life, philosophy, poetry, quotes, religion by amoslanka on February 15, 2009

Mr. Frederick Buechner is a recent discovery for me, though so beautiful and somehow familiar, has already found his way to the top of both my heart and my reading list. These are two of his most touching passages I’ve recently come upon. 

The first is a passage I had the fortunate coincidence to read on an early morning commute through the Cascade Mountains and the Columbia River Gorge to work as I listened to the magic of Sigur Ros. It was one of those moments where it seems Time had cleverly lined moments up to coincide, leaving me in almost bewildered sensual amazement, if I were to for the moment include that unnameable embrace of ones heart by a bit of poetic writing as a member of the senses. Read this passage noting that his full explanation of silence is one that would require considerably more quotation but in a short, inadequate nutshell, his idea of silence seems to me to have much to do with the remarkably personal and indescribable nature of the matter and the general tragedy of human existence.

Before the gospel is a word, it is a silence, a kind of presenting of life itself so that we see it not for what at various times we call it — meaninglessness or meaningful, absurd, beautiful — but for what it truly is in all its complexity, simplicity, mystery. The silence of Jesus in answer to Pilate’s question about truth seems such a presenting as does also in a way the silence of the television news with the sound turned off — the real news is what we see and feel, not what Walter Cronkite tells us — or the silence the Psalmist means when he says, “Be silent and know that I am God.” In each case it is a silence that demands to be heard because it is a presented silence, and [one] must somehow himself present this silence and mystery of truth by speaking what he feels, not what he ought to say, by speaking forth not only the light and hope of it but the darkness as well, all of it, because the Gospel has to do with all of these.

»» From Telling The Truth

This second is one as read to me by a certain beautiful soul from Atlanta. Not only does it sail the four seas of love in its vastness in four short lines, but it reveals just as quickly Buechner’s genius both in poetic brevity and in Christian thought.

The love for equals is a human thing—of friend for friend, brother for brother. It is to love what is loving and lovely. The world smiles.

The love for the less fortunate is a beautiful thing—the love for those who suffer, for those who are poor, the sick, the failures, the unlovely. This is compassion, and it touches the heart of the world.

The love for the more fortunate is a rare thing—to love those who succeed where we fail, to rejoice without envy with those who rejoice, the love of the poor for the rich, of the black man for the white man. The world is always bewildered by its saints.

And then there is the love for the enemy—love for the one who does not love you but mocks, threatens, and inflicts pain. The tortured’s love for the torturer. This is God’s love. It conquers the world.

»» From The Magnificent Defeat

Pax, my friends, and thank you, universe, for giving us Mr. Buechner.

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